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18 February 2014 @ 03:53 pm
I stumbled across this post while perusing some archives and I thought it would be fun to do it again. Items that no longer apply are crossed out. New stuff is italicized.

1. Clothing

  • Comfy in jeans, a T-shirt, and flip-flops

  • Dress-up in a dress or a skirt

  • Don't worry about name brand

  • Kind of a flashy dresser (likes colorful stuff)

  • Tries to make an effort to wear something nice, even if it's basic.

  • Loves shoes.


2. Social Status

  • Middle class

  • A few close friends

  • A lot of acquaintances

  • Keeps in touch with former coworkers.


3. Vocalization

  • Slurs some words

  • Tries to speak correct English

  • Low pitched voice

  • Speaks fast

  • Regular tone of voice


4. Education

  • Well-educated

  • Always gone to Catholic school

  • wants to attend college

  • Attending Indiana Wesleyan University. Hopes to graduate within a year.

  • Graduated from IWU with a Bachelor's Degree.

  • Misses school, but not tests or papers. Thinks about going back to school but can't fathom adding to current student loans.


5. Religion

  • Catholic

  • Not deeply rooted in faith

  • Loves her Catholic faith, even through all the questions.


6. Morals

  • Believes in premarital sex Understands the church's teachings on premarital sex, although she doesn't always follow it.

  • Abortion is wrong as a general rule

  • Believe strongly in bettering myself


7. Emotions

  • Very emotional person over friends, parents, guys, school, and goodbyes. Especially guys.

  • Very passionate about beliefs.


8. Physical & Mental Health

  • Not insane.

  • Physically fitDecently fit. Probably should get back into a regular gym routine.

  • Sometimes enjoy mental challenges. Sometimes.

  • Loves dance. Goes to the gym begrudgingly, but enjoys sore muscles after a good workout.

  • Got a tattoo a year ago and toying with two new tattoo ideas.


9. Body Language & Gestures

  • Talks with hands

  • Casual body language

  • Has expressive eyes and eyebrows (especially the eybrows!!) (ed note: the teacher wrote, "Yes you do!")

  • Tries to sit up straight.


10. Hygiene

  • Good hygiene habits.

  • Enjoys a clean environment.

  • Not overly concerned with appearance, but still takes time to look nice.


11. Family

  • Oldest of seven

  • Two parent family, mom passed. brother passed

  • Four boys, three girls

  • Three boys adopted

  • One set grandparents dead Both grandmothers and one grandfather dead.

  • Close to grandparents

  • Keeps in touch with relatives

  • Italian, but don't always participate in all affairs. but doesn't really have Italian traditions.

  • Interested in Irish dance


12. Physical Limitations

  • No physical limitations/disabilities, except for knees and ankles that act up.

  • Height = 5'4"

  • Average weight and build.

  • Medium to slender bodyframe.


13. Economics

  • Middle class.

  • Lives comfortably.

  • Slowly starting to save money.

  • Close to owning my car outright. Purchased a car, turned it in, and now leasing a car.

  • A decent amount of student loans to pay off once I'm done with school.


14. Likes

  • Food: Italian, fast food, salsa, good salads, pasta, steak, new food.

  • Music: Rock, can sometimes listen to Country, Jazz, Blues, R&B, Classical, Pop

  • Hobbies: Drama, Singing, Irish dance, Reading, Wine

  • Interests: Books, INDIANS!!, History, Wine

  • TV: Can survive without if there's access to movies or the internets, Likes movies but prefers to read

  • Computers: Can usually get around a program, Enjoys learning about them. Works for an IT company, has an IT degree, and installs software.


15. Talents

  • Irish dance

  • Singing

  • Piano

  • Theater

  • baking


16. Career

  • Looking into teaching Probably would get arrested for throwing things at students.

  • Looking into secretarial Wouldn't mind being an Admin, but perhaps in 20 years or so.

  • Currently an Implementation Specialist. New job title, but do basically do the same thing.

  • Wants to get into Project Management, once I wrap my head around not doing techy things.

  • Wants to get into some sort of management career. Once I can learn to say something other than "suck it up" when people complain


17. Marriage

  • Wants to get married.

  • Not planning life around getting married.


18. Posture/Way I walk

  • Don't always stand up straight.

  • Sometimes slouch in my seat.

  • Kind of walk into my hips.

  • Stroll walk when I'm not in a hurry.

  • Walk and run on the balls of my feet.

  • Tend to pull out a few dance moves while standing...and definitely when drinking.


19. Astrology

  • Sometimes read horoscopes.

  • Don't live life by horoscope.


20. Gender

  • Female

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14 April 2013 @ 10:56 pm
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26 December 2012 @ 11:47 pm
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Typically I don't do this. Instead I sit around waiting, hoping that they eventually feel the same as I. I have said something a few times, mostly with disastrous results. But in those instances I built my hope up so much and I had so far to fall.

Today I let it out. Without much hope. Almost as an after thought...which is what it was really. I hadn't planned to say it, but the opportunity presented itself and I knew that I couldn't survive many more months of wondering and not knowing. And like I thought, the feelings aren't there. But now I can move on, knowing that I tried and didn't get my hopes dashed too much. Hopefully the friendship is still there. Because I like that, the friendship. Losing that may be worse than losing the potential.
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16 December 2012 @ 11:27 am
I have a picture of you at my desk. Well, it's really a headshot that I put on a button. It's taped to the corner of one of my monitors. Someone asked if there was a funny story about the button. No...not really.

I made you my desktop background at work during November. Some people thought you were a model. Others wondered if you were a famous Asian pop-star. They got quiet when I told your story.

For some reason people decided to ask about you at last night's Christmas party. Talk about a downer. Most days I don't mind talking about you, but I couldn't handle it last night.

I still miss you. I still don't understand. I don't know that I'll ever understand.
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02 December 2012 @ 10:40 pm
When I retire I need to work with books. Either the library or a bookstore - I don't know that I have a preference. My favorite job to date was working at the library. Don't get me wrong. I love my job and I'm very good at my job. But I love books more. Unfortunately the library can't pay me as much as I make now. Or at least I presume this to be the case. So I'll stick with my current job and then switch to books when I retire.

I visited The Book Loft today. It's one of the largest independent bookstores in the country and features 32 rooms, each of which has a CD player with different music in each room. In other words - heaven on earth. I think we were there for two hours and I could've stayed longer. I walked out with 7 books, 2 of which were presents. Fortunately I was with friends, which really forced me to leave. I walked in knowing that I was going to buy a few books, but definitely didn't plan to spend just under $100. I didn't pay full price for any of them, although my discounts may have only been 75 cents. I also added 5 books to my "To Read" list.

I spent the most time in the autobiography section. There's something about memoirs that appeal to me. Here you can find writers who write about themselves but find a way to make the story sound like fiction. It's pretty easy for me to purchase a memoir without knowing anything about it. I have to have background on a work of fiction before I'll purchase it. Normally my recommendations are from friends, but I'm a big fan of Nancy Pearl. I've purchased several books she's recommended and really enjoyed them. I like the way she describes the books. You can hear her enthusiasm on the radio. One of these days I'll get around to reading her book just to get more recommendations. At that point I'll definitely need another bookshelf.
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26 November 2012 @ 07:04 am
I still find books and music to be one of the best gifts. To me, it's like I'm receiving a part of you. A part of your soul that you choose to share with me, in the hopes that I too will be just as enamored with this book or song or artist. Such a personal gift in such a tiny package.
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22 September 2012 @ 11:36 am
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02 June 2012 @ 03:53 pm
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28 January 2012 @ 11:16 pm
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22 January 2012 @ 08:39 pm
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18 December 2011 @ 11:13 pm
So my brother died. That doesn't quite cover everything. My brother committed suicide. 3 1/2 years after my mom died. 3 1/2 months after my dad was diagnosed with cancer. Life is rough.

My dietitian said she hoped I had an outlet. To unwind and all. Today I started thinking about how I unwind. Because I went to yoga class, and at the first breathe in I wanted to cry. And I wanted to cry when I breathed out. And tears kept welling up in my eyes through the entire class. And at the end of the class I was so relaxed I wanted to sleep. But in a good way.

The whole thing...the yoga class and how great I felt...led me to thinking about how I've been unwinding this past month.

I hang out with friends. I'm most myself when I am with them. If I want to talk I do. And if I don't want to talk I don't. I'm not even talking about my brother here. Just about random stuff.

I drink. A lot. I think that for two weeks after my brother died I drank every day. And I'm pretty sure I've been more drunk this month than the past couple months combined.

I eat good food. It helps that I was traveling. Traveling gives me the excuse to try new food including desserts.

I got a massage. Two of them actually. Just back massages, but they were great just the same. Thank God for massages at work.

I've been working. A lot. I've been on the road, and then in the office for a week. And I'll probably be working on my week off.

I don't work out. This has to change. See the drinking and eating points. But working out also helps me unwind. See the yoga point. I kinda forgot how much it helps me. I'm hoping to go back to the dance studio this week. I wasn't planning on it, but yoga reminded me how much I missed dance. I realize the two aren't technically connected, but for me they're just different extensions of each other. I'm off for two weeks so there's really no excuse for me to not work out.

So, between the friends, drinking, food, work, and hopeful working out I'll be able to unwind. To a degree. And one day during yoga I'll be able to cry
 
 
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17 October 2011 @ 07:13 am
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Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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